Anyone else get fired up before New Years? I never allowed myself to do that before because I know how the story goes. You talk a big game all through the month of December; “I’m going to work out every day starting January 1st”, or I’m going to start on that project I’ve been meaning to do”. Easy to say while you’re planted on your couch, online shopping and eating aunt Susan’s famous peppermint fudge. What happens when reality smacks you in the face?
This was the first year I’ve ever really set big dreams and goals for myself, and I was PUMPED. Two weeks in though, my baby decided it was a good time to pop a tooth… and then I got sick… and then my child care fell through… and then someone got shot right across the street from the daycare I was considering… and to top it all off my husband is a CPA so now through April 15th he is useless for anything that doesn’t involve a tax return. Well shoot. Maybe next year.
If you haven’t read Girl Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis, you’ve been living under a rock and it’s time to come out. No, but really. She has a whole chapter about the difference between her and someone else who’s tried to do the same things and failed, is not taking no for an answer. It is gold on a page!
So what is one to do? I have to pull myself out of this rut. As a result of doors being closed, I’m just sitting in a hallway pouting, when I could be using that time and space to prepare myself for whatever’s next. I had a goal to get lots of continuing education this year and grow my business. But now that I have to cut back even more, what’s the point? Instead of thinking like that, I’ve decide to use this time more wisely. Being that I am taking fewer clients currently, I have more time to devote to education so that when I get back into taking more clients, I am ready to put everything I’ve learned into practice, and serve them better than ever.
I also had a goal to figure out what I’m doing with this blog. I would love to see momma’s all over my local area supporting one another, and being real together. So I’m viewing this as an opportunity to really connect with the woman around me in a way I haven’t had the time or the courage to do in the past, and I’m really excited about that.
I know it can seem confusing and discouraging when God closes doors that you thought he was leading you through, but I trust His plan. It’s really freeing to kind of throw your hands up and give it to Him. In my experience God’s plans for us are bigger and greater than we could ever imagine. So it’s okay if you don’t understand exactly why things are happening, or aren’t happening. He does, and that’s really where I lean in times like this. I’m also a big fan of being present, and finding joy from the moment that you are in right now. This verse says it better-
“Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.”
If you are in a place like me, where you were fired up for change this year, just to have life push you back down. I have 3 questions that you can ask yourself.
1. How much control do I have over this situation?
2. How bad do I want this?
3. How will my life look different when I implement this new thing?
I encourage you ladies, chase your dreams, don’t take no for an answer, trust the process, and enjoy the moment. Right now I’m enjoying every moment with my little man while I wait for our “what’s next”.