I have always thought about blogging but I never thought I would actually do it. It seemed so intimidating; what if no one reads it? What if everyone reads it and hates it? But after squeezing a baby out of my own body, I’ve decided if I can do THAT, I can do all of the other things I’ve always wanted to do. So I’m doing it.
That’s my running theme for this season of life I guess. I once heard this advise: If you make your work out in the morning the hardest part of your day, everything that follows will seem easy, so you can just relax and cruise through the day because the hardest part is done.
I heard this advise at a time when I was struggling with crippling anxiety. I was considering quitting my job, and isolating myself from other people in general, because everything was just overwhelming. I used this tip to get myself through that season, so I want to apply it to the season of life I’m in now.
Giving birth, and the weeks that followed, was hands down the most difficult experience of my life. I was exhausted, my body was a wreck, and my baby was a cluster feeder; meaning all throughout the day and night he would sleep in short increments, and want to nurse for long periods of time during each waking. How this looked in my daily life was laying him down for occasionally as long as 3 hours, but often as little as 20-30 minuets, before he would wake up and want to eat again. When he nursed, they call this cluster feeding I guess, he would be on for over an hour. You can see how that is a recipe for disaster. Around 6 weeks though, things got better and I was able to come out of that fog a little bit, obviously there have still been some challenges, but the worst was over.
I tell you that story because after getting through that season of life, I remembered the advise I’d gotten a few years ago about exercising and anxiety. Now that I’ve gotten through that first 6 weeks, everything else from here on out is manageable. That thought process has helped me to keep going and push myself harder, because I know I’ve been through worse and come out the other side.
My hope with this blog is to share my journey into parenthood, and how I juggle being a wife and a working mom, in hopes that other mama’s will be able to relate, and take comfort in the fact that what they’re feeling and dealing with is totally normal, as well as to inspire ladies to pursue their dreams. Your ambitions and goals do not have to be put on hold just because you are raising young children, incredible things are attainable even while being a mama!